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Completing my primary cancer treatments is a huge milestone. I just wish I knew what it meant. I'm faced now with a whole new future. Where do I go now?
Father David had an amazing homily yesterday at Mass - He spoke of the quiet faithfulness of St. Joseph (something that I want to learn and practice) and also quoted Joseph Campbell (who I'm not sure I agree with all of his theories) who said "We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us." My week will be spent trying to live that - what does God have planned for me next, because my life is in His hands, not mine, and I need to be open to what He has in store for me.
I know what I don't want in my life going forward and I know what I do want. I don't want the high stress, pressure, negativity, and, I do want more God, family, and me time. I guess God is taking care of it, please pray that I will be able to recognize what He is showing me.
God Bless you all and have a Blessed Christmas,
Linda
I'm just so glad I found your blog today!!!!! Two and a half years ago, I was diagnosed with stage 3B breast cancer which had already broken through the skin and was to the chest wall and in the lymph nodes. Not a good outlook. I had the chemo, burnt to a crisp with radiation, mastectomy, and now, here I am with no sign of return. Not what we all expected, but God had different plans. I know what you mean about not knowing what's next. I went through a period of feeling almost like I was left in the middle of the desert all by myself, not knowing how to start over or what to do. Psalm 37:7 says, "Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way." And Proverbs 3:5,6 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths." And I'm living proof that it's all true. Take the time to rest. Not just bodily, but emotionally and spiritually. You will find yourself again, catch up with life that has seemed to leave you behind, and you will find that the Lord has something new and beautiful for you. I blogged all through my cancer journey and you may have to go back in my posts to find them all, but I do remember that feeling of , "Now what?" If you don't mind, I'll be praying for you as you continue on this journey!!!!!
ReplyDeleteOh, my friend. You are so amazing! I love the verse in Acts 4.13, where it is speaking of Peter and John: "...they were marveling and began to recognize them as having been with Jesus". You, dear Linda, have been with Jesus. Though we are miles away, I can see how Jesus is in you, and shining through you. Press on, you are doing well!!!
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